After a certain amount of time and witnessing change, I've realized all that happens resorts back to what was. You take ten steps back as soon as you walk twenty steps. Perhaps I am completely alien to human bonds. I sleep less and I forget how to interact. My best friend can't even deny the fact I maybe completely hopeless when it comes to a human bond. Its a sad thought to believe you may be alone, or just the idea of really late at night the world will be silenced and you can hear all your regrets and pains of the past.
I shut off my phone tonight for the first time in forever. I could hardly stand the sound of its incessant vibrate. Each time I would check it, It would bring me lower than I already felt. Realizing you may have invested time into a friendship for nothing is inevitably the worse feeling in the world. To realize that, that friend may pick a friend who you know is a manipulator and a condescending human being. That you exed that person out only to realize later on they maybe replacing you to your best friend. Who knows, maybe I'm overreacting, since that is the famous phrase of tonight, But I'm insanely tired of being jerked around and fucked over in every shape or form. I went from having a great week (with the beautiful sunshine and going to the mountains) to only realize that Everything goes back to the way it was. Nothing remains the same and Change isn't always great. They call it rolling with the punches, well I just got knocked the fuck out.

Nothing is ever hopeless. Not even people.
You're never alone, as long as you know me. I promise I'll be here when the dust clears, and anytime you want to talk, you don't even have to greet me. Just say what you need to say, and I'll listen.
-hug-
» Unicornasaurus on 2008-07-26 11:35:15

Most things seem to be sad if you think about them too long. You get used to it. I mean, I'm not saying you should, but you can...

Sounds like you're having a pretty crappy time, but judging from the comment above mine, you have friends who will help you through it.
» randomjunk on 2008-07-27 05:16:58

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